When we think of a miracle we think of something drastic and amazing. Like someone coming out of a nine month coma or a man walking after years of paralyzation. We don’t often understand that miracles happen around us everyday of our lives. It is in the smallest details of our lives that miracles occur, we just don’t see it that way. It is a miracle we wake up every morning with a new breath to take and smile at the lives we have and get to live. Miracles happen everyday, change your perception of what a miracle is and you’ll see them all around you. 

 

The past two years of my life have definitely felt like an empty cup of miracles. Losing a son then experiencing an ectopic pregnancy has felt like the complete opposite. Getting pregnant again is and was not an easy task. It is frustrating and easy to become impatient. Yet, through all the pain and heartache we received so many tender mercies from Heavenly Father, Little miracles that made each day possible to live. Life is a series of tiny miracles, notice them. A smile, wave, small conversation, visit from a friend, food, invitations are all tiny miracles in our lives that just make it seem a little easier to get through the day. It is always easier to see the negative in your situation or life, but once you make the decision to see the positive, your eyes are opened to all the blessings and tiny miracles you have in your life. It took me a while to make this decision, but the moment I did I could not believe how lucky I was. To have a family that loves me, a husband that cares and supports me, a son that forever holds my heart, friends that are forever and a loving heavenly father that is in every detail of my life. Something so simple can seem so difficult to do, but when you allow the simple things in life to take over, life seems a little less complicated. 

 

Our big miracle happened on christmas eve, when I tested positive with my third pregnancy. A time full of excitement, humility and...fear. All things negative flowed through my head, what if I lose this baby again? What if I have another ectopic pregnancy? Will I have to get my other tube taken out? Am I healthy and strong enough to do this? All questions flooded my mind as I began my journey of another pregnancy. Although, we were blessed with this huge miracle, I doubted my ability to hold this baby and be hopeful that everything would work out. Why would i think this when I was given the gift to bring another child into this world? I didn’t see the miracles I was being given throughout this whole pregnancy. But, when i started to notice them, this is what I saw. 

 

First miracle, was the comfort of not having an ectopic pregnancy! It was viable! That meant no surgery, no tube removal and a happy mother. The second miracle, he is a boy. A beautiful and healthy boy. The third miracle, going through a surgery to stitch my cervix, which ultimately stopped me from going into premature labor again. The fourth miracle, he survived the surgery. The fifth miracle, getting to 24 weeks where baby can survive on his own. The sixth miracle, making it to the third trimester, knowing that my son is going to live. Everyday has been a miracle. Feeling him kick, seeing him smile, feeling his strength as he fights everyday to stay healthy and develop in his home before he enters the world. All these miracles I didn’t notice because I chose to look at the bad instead of the good. My perception of a miracle did not match with what I felt I was experiencing, when in reality mirac;es were happening every second of everyday as I continued and still continue to grow this beautiful boy in my body. Isn’t that a miracle in itself? The ability to even fall pregnant after so many challenges, the ability to grow a human being in my body, that I thought failed me all the time. Although I was not blessed with a perfect body, perfect working organs and perfect pregnancies, I know i was blessed with these experiences, which for me have been miracles in my life. Each hardship, each challenge, trial and adversity has taught me the importance of strength, hope, charity, love, patience and most importantly faith. It can be easy to allow fear take over our minds and thoughts when everything seems like it is going wrong, but fear is the opposite to faith. We are all given a purpose, chosen for something in this life and it can take us a while to figure that out at times, but having faith with every footstep can make that discovery an enjoyable experience. I never thought I had the opportunity to be a mother again, I didn’t understand my purpose or role as a wife and mother. I know now that with each footstep of faith I have been able to recognize my role as a friend, wife, sister, aunty and daughter. It is a journey and I keep thinking that I have been given one of the greatest gifts, motherhood. A gift, that we are all not blessed with in this very moment or this time in our lives. But this I know, that we will all experience motherhood in a variety of ways, We may not be blessed with motherhood in this life, but I know you can and will be in the next. Motherhood is more than bearing children, it is the essence of who we are as women. Women are blessed with the innate and natural ability of motherhood qualities and we can use them not only for motherhood but to those that surround us everyday. Women are miracles, it is time we start believing that. Our miracles come in different shapes and sizes, but the point is that they come. We can never see the big picture of why things happen the way they do, but if we take a step back, change our perceptions of miracles, have an attitude of gratitude and persevere, things will always work out. I spent my whole life afraid of things that had never happened yet and it held me back from all the miracles and blessings that were happening in my life. So it is time that we take a step forward and live in gratitude. If you want to find happiness, find gratitude. We choose the lives we live, the way we think, the way we act. If we make those little changes everyday to see life in a perspective of positivity, happiness and gratitude, our hearts will be filled with joy. Do not give up on your situation, as hard as they may seem, trust me I understand....don’t ever give up, because something good is always around the corner, just when things seem to be getting worse, push just that extra mile and you will see the blessings pour onto your lap. 

 

Our sweet Sol has become an older brother and we cannot wait to invite our miracle into this world. I hope you see the many tiny miracles in your life and help others to as well. Remember, you are a miracle and you bless many as you go throughout your journey of life.