After a few days of mourning over our son we had to organize funeral services for Sol so we could have his loved ones gather and celebrate his short life here on earth. May 2nd, 2017 was the date and it was one of the hardest days of my life to say goodbye to my son for the last time until we would reunite in our Heavenly Father's presence.

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Our whole service was full of musical items, as this was all Sol heard when he was alive. All families and friends came to pay their respects and celebrate his short life with us. My father in law sang beautiful songs that my son always heard while he was in my stomach and the moment he entered this world. My eldest brother spoke along with my husband and I. Now I'm not a very good speaker so I decided that I would read a letter that I had written my son earlier that morning, to leave with him forever.

 

Many of our family members couldn't make it to Sol's funeral including my brother and sister in law as she was admitted with cancer just a few days after my son had passed away. My sister is a strong and beautiful woman that is going through something that I could never imagine going through, but she is positive, tough and beautiful, which inspires me to be better and allows me to find comfort and strength in her story. Our family had been going through a lot during this time and we needed each other to lean on in order to get through these challenges.

 

After the service, everyone gathered down at the La'ie cemetery as we said our final goodbyes and sent him away with beautiful songs and a haka. Everyday I think of my son, wishing I could hold him one more time or kiss his sweet little forehead. I miss him every single day. His name hangs around my neck so I can keep him close to my heart every day.

 

We would not have been able to do this without all the love and support given to us by family, friends and even strangers. What a blessing it was to have so many people share their experiences with us, to empathize and sympathize with us. I share these things because I know that there are so many other mum's and woman that go through these same trials or silent burdens that we don't know of. We all experience pain and anguish, and just as I did many others supported and comforted me with their own experiences. This is what I want to do as I share these dearest experiences with you all. Know that there is always someone out there for you to talk to, cry to and simply just listen. I know that I am a daughter of God and he lives and loves me, just as he does with all his other children. Through this trial I have come to understand that we all receive challenges and hardship and they are good! Hardships are always constant but how we react is the variable. Hardship will always be there, but the most important thing is how we respond or react. We all receive trials and challenges no matter how big or small, but as we do, remember that they are put in our pathways to perfect us and help us learn and grow so we can understand and learn our divine nature and true worth.